I am not an expert when it comes with love, relationship, or commitment. I fall in and out of love for few many times. The feeling of "ALMOST THERE, BUT ALL OF A SUDDEN, IT LOST" is often what I have experienced with few men that I used to date or get know with. But I'm always the type of person who believes in TRUE LOVE despite of all the failures and heartaches. And for today, I am writing my idea about it.
TRUE LOVE? Well, that's very ideal thing for most. But I've learned, it's not. I've heard a lot of sayings, quotes, or words of wisdom about it, but what had caught my attention about Love is a verse from a bible,
If I speak in the tongues of men and angels,
but have not love,
I have become sounding brass or a tinkling symbol.
And if I have prophecy and know all mysteries and all knowledge,
and if I have all faith so as to remove mountains,
but have not love, I am nothing.
And if I dole out all my goods, and
if I deliver my body that I may boast
but have not love, nothing I am profited.
Love is long suffering,
love is kind,
it is not jealous,
love does not boast,
it is not inflated.
It is not discourteous,
it is not selfish,
it is not irritable,
it does not enumerate the evil.
It does not rejoice over the wrong, but rejoices in the truth
It covers all things,
it has faith for all things,
it hopes in all things,
it endures in all things.
Love never falls in ruins;
but whether prophecies, they will be abolished; or
tongues, they will cease; or
knowledge, it will be superseded.
For we know in part and we prophecy in part.
But when the perfect comes, the imperfect will be superseded.
When I was an infant,
I spoke as an infant,
I reckoned as an infant;
when I became [an adult],
I abolished the things of the infant.
For now we see through a mirror in an enigma, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know as also I was fully known.
But now remains
faith, hope, love,
these three;
but the greatest of these is love.
Through this words, I understand better why I always failed and ended with broken-hearted. I understand the pain and struggles to stand up and face the consequences of loving someone. I've suffered from anger, hatred, and even almost lost my faith in God.
I spoke as an infant,
I reckoned as an infant;
when I became [an adult],
I abolished the things of the infant.
For now we see through a mirror in an enigma, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know as also I was fully known.
But now remains
faith, hope, love,
these three;
but the greatest of these is love.
Through this words, I understand better why I always failed and ended with broken-hearted. I understand the pain and struggles to stand up and face the consequences of loving someone. I've suffered from anger, hatred, and even almost lost my faith in God.
Loving someone is not to find my happiness to the man of my affection. But to share my happiness and sadness with him. It's not just to feel how completely beautiful I am, but to appreciate the beauty of my significant other. But to know how to let go when things are not in mutual feelings. It's a two way process. True Love is exclusively for two people who are honestly in love with each other. True Love is not just an unconditional at first. For it is not a fairy tale that ends happily ever after. True Love doesn't end. It's goes strong through the years.
Though True Love is hard to achieve and humans are created to be vulnerable in temptations, too weak for strong emotions, but I don't think this can be used as an excuse/excuses to cheat. Cheating is only for insecure people.
Love is a very sweet word to hear and to feel too. It makes me happy at first, get nervous along the way, and may gives me heartaches in the end. Sad. But this is the reality of life. And I need to move on. Move on to become a better person. A worthy woman. And I'm proud of myself that in every pain I've got, I learned to appreciate myself even more and be humble to trust God's plans for me.
