REALITY CHECK: EVERY DREAM DOES HAPPEN THROUGH HARD WAYS.

Everybody has dreams and goals in life.

No matter how simple or big our dreams are, what matter most is to fulfill it and make it happens.

When I was a small kid, I used to act like an office girl as I put on a piece of my formal dresses with a handbag on my arm; and also build my own bedroom with arranged pillows as my improvised bed and make use of my grand mom’s flashlight that I fasten on the wall as my lampshade. It was funny to think that as a little girl I dressed up myself on business attire like costume, take note, yeah, with matching high heels pair of shoes of my aunt. How simple to make that little girl’s dreams happened.

Growing up and knowing things are not as simple as what I think they were, changes introduced me about learning what I really wanted to be. But fulfilling a dream is not as easy as I built my improvised bed and dressed up like an office girl when I was a kid.

Every single dream composed of hard ways to achieve it. Most of the times I feel like I want to give up especially when things are hopeless and impossible but little did I understand that dreams are attainable through hard ways.

Hard ways are created to improve the sense of responsibility, to know exactly what a person wants deep inside of her/his heart, to practice patience, to enhance one’s decision making, and to develop a profound faith in one self and to God.

Support from the family, friends, and mentors, I agree, have a big role to someone’s being in fulfilling one’s dream but I realized that I should never do depend on them.

 

To make a dream happens: reality check, sometimes, embracing the hard ways and firmly focusing on what truly matters are better than any other way around.

Writing

 

 

They say writers are good readers. And good readers are categorized as intelligent people. But for me, writing and other forms of self expression is for everybody.

Writing gives me the freedom to express and also to expand my ideas as well. For some, writing is to discuss some ideas and topics about politics and others issues related to society to serve as an eye opener.

I started to write in the form of diary when I was 10 year old. And later on in high school, my skills in writing grew even more because of our Composition Making class. During those times, we write about our experiences during summer vacation, Christmas and New Year’s break, our most unforgettable moment, and everything under the sun. I enjoyed it. I even got highest grade in my works and my teacher was very pleased to read my composition.

I went to college and I used to write poems even though I am not taking up any course related to writing. I write whenever I got ideas on my mind just like when I feel to draw an anime character but as much as possible I’m trying to write things about inspiration and good life lessons. I want to contribute some possible solutions and uplift people. Yeah, I enjoyed writing ideas.

That someone who makes you feel free

Having someone whom you can share everything under the sun is like making you feel as if you are flying and seeing the whole view of a place.

I believe that one of the best ways to know if someone is the so called “the one”  and someone who is trustworthy – you can say anything to this person without being judged and controlled to whatever ideas you have in your mind. He/she just let you speak your mind, good or bad, yet he/she still respects you.  

I always admired those couples or even friends, siblings, and other type of relationships who can discuss things without crashing one another.

Refocus. Recover. After every Failure.

1. GET CONNECTED. Not everybody listens and hears you. The best listener you can ever have is only your own self.

2. EMOTIONALLY INDEPENDENT. Nobody understands you? Then, you don't have time to be understood. Keep on going, anyway.

3. DETACHMENT PERIOD. Train yourself to be more responsible on your own. Have a lot of courage to fly again even if you're going to fly solo.

4. LESS EXPECTATIONS. Stand for yourself more than expect others to validate your own worth.

5. BE YOUR OWN MORAL SUPPORTER or MOTIVATOR. Most of the times, a lot of people will give you supports during your journey and after your success. But what I've observed was after a failure, only few can stay and continuously encourage and give you moral supports. In that manner, I suggest to practice to be your own motivator. 


KEEP ON GOING. SOMEDAY, THINGS WILL GET BETTER AND PUT IN THE RIGHT PERSPECTIVES. :)
          

Alone but Whole.

"Life is short. Have fun."

Yeah, I even go for fun when things are in stressed mode. But one thing I learned is that some people can't help but to be serious at things. Maybe everybody does get serious, it's just a matter of how to handle the situation.

I, myself, am experiencing also bad days. I'm trying not to be so emotional, but I'm not saying I've never broke down and cried in my past years. I'm trying to understand things so I won't get easily mad at some people, but no, I can never control my feelings not to get hurt especially by people I'm looking up to. 

Things happened and people changed. But deep inside of me, I know I just have to move on and try to focus on things that might give me solutions and inspirations to achieve my goals and to keep on going.

Being emotional, for me, is okay. As long as you can still go back to your own self, to your own mindfulness, everything will be alright. When I was in my teen years, I was very careful about how I will present myself to people, because I was hitting the top of my "good girl" image back then and people around me were expected so much and a lot from me. I don't even want to fail and make mistakes because in their eyes, I'm so and a very good girl. But things changed after I made a mistake. I feel alone and nobody understands and cares about me. I feel like I can never be good at things, but I was wrong.

At this point of my life, though I'm still striving to achieve my dreams, I realized that mistakes are made to make me whole. I thought that those failures I've been through will make me a less person. I can never bring back those years when I was the "good girl" and when everybody in my family were so proud of me. I thought that was my happiest day. I'm still have my heart, but this time, I'm just having a good time to enjoy who I really am. I'm no longer be the "good girl", but I'm better than I was yesterday. I'm still kindhearted but I have to protect my dreams and be happy fulfilling my goals alone. I feel whole even more than thinking that "Here, I am, alone, yeah, sad can't feel their supports and understanding" but again at least I'm whole.

#ItsOkayNotToBeOkay #BeingSeriousDoesntAlwaysBeingSad #ImAloneButThingsWillGetBetter

My social media list of friends (ideapod)

I think it's my 4th time to delete and create Facebook account since 2009. The reason why I joined this SNS was because of my best friend Irish. She made my first FB account so we, Irish and I, can play the game called Sorority. I remembered she was the only friend I have there and I only used FB for games. So there, year 2010, FB became famous in our class, and I remember one of my male classmate told me that he added me there and even made a funny comment on my first ever profile picture. From then on, I received many friend requests from others.
At first it was cool, but later on, I feel like my FB wall was no longer fun. Being friendly is not bad, but friendship for keeps and for real is better. Today, there are many things that make me stressed, so I want to read good things and befriend with people who can share good vibes especially in my social media accounts.

The Sweetness Side of Me - I think. 

If love is mature, it means it’s a Gift from God. And because I want a mature kind of love, I've been praying for him, my Gift from God. I know he is praying for me too. I was thinking these past years that I can never have this beautiful love story because I have fears of meeting the wrong man which led me to a childish decision last year, but I now realized that if God creates me as a kind and sweet woman in my own way, I must believe that he is longing only for me.

Lately, I was confused about my feelings to someone. I don’t know but he makes me feel something I don’t understand. But I’m pretty much sure, he makes me smile and I think he doesn’t know that. I’m not sure what he feels for me. But I think he is not into me. Well, maybe God is testing me again if I am fully letting Him to write my love story. (I was reading this book "When God Writes Your Love Story" by Eric and Leslie Ludy.) It was tempting to take my pen from God, especially when someone is making me smile like I’m always in front of a camera. It sounds old school, but at the back of my mind I think I deserve to be pursued by a man.

I want my love life to be something inspiring. Like two people, a couple, who are partners in every single thing. Romance and intellectual are two of things I get excited about my love story. I want only a man. A sensible man, loving, supportive, he believes in God, who prays to God, who wants to build his family with me, who has a bit of adventurous gene in his blood like me, he pursues his own dreams, he needs me, respects, and loves me the most, someone who never forsaken me even if things aren’t in good terms, he needs me always and he is not ashamed of that. His loneliness has no place in his heart, his sadness is nothing to his life, and even his insecurities can never destroy his love for me for he only knows I am his everything.  From the start and the end of the day, him and me, together, we will fight and face each challenge in our journey as a partner. Of course, I want what most girls wanted; flowers, chocolates, dates, everything, but most of all, I want only him. Again, I’m an old school, but I want to meet not just my boyfriend, but my husband for the rest of my life.

Okay, yeah, I’m now imagining like a little innocent girl. I wonder what he thinks if he read this. I know, if he is really the one, God will lead him to me. Yeah, it’s all about God’s will. I feel confident with God now when I talk about my love life. I’ve chose someone before as if no man is destined for me but that guy only kind of mentality. It was a childish decision I made in my life to be involved with a guy who would never do something special for me or could never appreciate me in his life. It’s the worst feeling ever when you are not appreciated by someone you’ve given your heart with.

It’s true. God knows best. I know, it’s safe way to do to protect my heart. If that man asked me from God, that man can protect my heart by all of his loving and sweetness he has been saving only for me. Everything he needs is in me, all he wants is me, all his love comes with me, and big time, he prays for me, thinks about me, and always excited to be near me.

He is and will always the best ever for me.